The Ghosting Cycle

Poetry, Writer life

From the moment I wake up in the morning

Till the time I drift into slumber at night

There’s one thing I want to tell you

‘I hate you!’

While I go on with my day

One eye, always on the phone

Even when I know, you ain’t gonna reply

I hate you!

Months goes without a single text from you

And I know you ghosted me

Yet I keep waiting for you

I so damn hate you!

For conquering my mind,

For disappearing without goodbye,

For not being here with me,

I hate you!

And as I went on hating you

Missing you, thinking about you

One day I didn’t hate you anymore

You weren’t ruling my mind anymore.

Then out of the blue,

As if you didn’t disappear without an adieu

You’re back with your silly little, ‘Hi.’

Unable to resist I reply.

Much to my distaste,

You bring the widest smile on my face.

Only to be ghosted again,

Hating you once again.

Yet you come back with your shameless, ‘Hi’

And I lose my mind once again

The moments we had swirling in my mind

Why do this to myself?