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The rollercoaster of… Love?

I saw your eyes, so filled with grief,
I took you in my arms, forgot my pain,
Poured onto you all of my love,
Gave you my heart, body, and soul,
I knew I would never be put first,
But madly in love, I settled being second.

You told me how much she meant to you,
Oh, how she broke you, leaving you all alone,
I let you shed your tears upon my shoulder,
And watched you save her last bus ticket,
You carried it everywhere in your wallet,
As I swallowed my grief, didn’t give you a hint.

Then, somebody else entered your life,
You called her Venus, an embodiment of Aphrodite,
You brought her to the bed we made love in,
You told me how delicately you undressed her,
That’s when my heart could take it no more,
Tears ran down, and you said nothing happened.

Madly in love with you, I believed you,
And some months down the road,
There was yet another woman in your life,
You showed me her nudes, and all your sex talks,
Then, you told me that she meant nothing,
That was lust, and I’m the only one you loved.

In rage and heartbreak, I kissed another guy,
I thought I’d come home and tell you all about it,
But what happened was more than just a kiss,
He touched my soul the way you never did,
We talked in lyrics, and poured out our worries,
Oh, how, I almost fell in love with him.

Fast forwards, five years and multiple affairs later,
I opened my eyes, and then I realized,
My flesh and bones were the only things that mattered,
Yet, my heart craved for you, beaten and battered,
Somewhere deep within, I knew you loved me,
Is it my disillusion? Or do you love me?

But, nothing matters now, does it?
I’ve made up my mind, I’m walking away.

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Responses

  1. Brad Osborne Avatar

    I love how this story unfolds. The reader is drawn in and becomes emotionally invested in the outcome. As the story continues they feel most dramatically the emotions placed on the page. When written this well and honestly, you will have to forgive your readers for thinking this comes from personal experience. The proximity and tangibility of the emotions you invoke are rarely seen without firsthand knowledge. Very well written, little one!

    1. Shreya Joshi Avatar

      Your comment make me tear up… It’s been so long since I last visited WP. Truly missed it. Thank you so much, Brad! I missed you. β€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈπŸ€—πŸ€—πŸ€—πŸ’žπŸ’žπŸ’žπŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°

      1. Brad Osborne Avatar

        Missed you too! Sending you tons of love! πŸ’–πŸ’•πŸ₯°πŸŒΉπŸ˜˜

      2. Shreya Joshi Avatar

        Sending tons of love back to you!! πŸ€—πŸ€—πŸ€—β€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈ

    2. ben Alexander Avatar

      Yeah… I almost afraid to ask – is this based on real experience? It sure feels like it, Shreya!

      1. Shreya Joshi Avatar

        It’s a fiction… Maybe πŸ˜‚πŸ™ˆ

  2. Bharath Upendra Avatar

    I’ve seen you somewhere

    1. Shreya Joshi Avatar

      Oh, have you? πŸ€”πŸ€”πŸ€”πŸ€”

      1. Bharath Upendra Avatar

        Do I sound like I’m kidding??

      2. Shreya Joshi Avatar

        Blehhhhhhhhhhhhhh

      3. Shreya Joshi Avatar

        Whyy?? πŸ₯ΊπŸ₯Ί

      4. Bharath Upendra Avatar

        Aren’t you bored?

      5. Shreya Joshi Avatar

        Cause I’m awesome! 😍

      6. Bharath Upendra Avatar

        Self proclamation isn’t good

      7. Shreya Joshi Avatar

        Do you think I care?

      8. Bharath Upendra Avatar

        I don’t care if you do or don’t

      9. Shreya Joshi Avatar

        Blehhhhhhhhhhhhhh

  3. katiemiafrederick Avatar

    SMiles Shreya it’s Nice
    To See You back
    Writing on
    Word Press
    Indeed Falling
    In Love Appropriately
    Named Wanting
    So to
    Capture
    A FLoWeR
    Always Blooming
    That Never
    Ends
    But
    True
    At Best Always
    Loving Friends
    With Or Without
    The Physical
    Part
    That
    Bonds
    In Torrents
    And Divides
    In Continuing
    Hopes For
    Owning
    Blooms
    Of Flowers
    Love Is What We
    Give it is Magic
    Receiving
    Back
    Yet
    As Long
    As We Give
    At Least
    We
    Still
    Breathe
    Colors of Life
    β€˜The Nice Grand Pa’
    Says Hi And i
    Surely
    Will
    Relate
    To Your Pain too
    As Verily My
    Roses
    Haven’t
    Always Been Red..😊

    1. Shreya Joshi Avatar

      πŸ™ˆπŸ™ˆπŸ™ˆ I’ve missed you!! πŸ€—πŸ€—πŸ€— How have you been?

      1. katiemiafrederick Avatar

        SMiles i kid you
        Not i was Just
        Wondering If
        You Were Doing
        Okay Yesterday
        As Your Face
        Came to
        My Mind
        On The
        Reader Trail
        SMiLes Still
        Writing 100,000
        Words A Month Mostly
        In Response to Sweet
        Folks From India Like
        You As Traveling
        The Globe
        There Are
        No Deeper
        Eyes For Creativity
        Than Indian Women
        Beautiful like
        My Wife True
        And Yes Still
        Public Dancing
        162 Miles or So
        A Month on Average
        Just Reaching A 14,000
        Mile Milestone in 87
        Months Along With
        8.7 Millions of
        Free Verse Poetry
        Words mostly
        Again
        To
        Kind
        And Very
        Inspiring
        Folks Just
        Like You
        Singing
        All Your
        Soul
        Freely
        Authentically
        Truly Always
        Magic
        Muse
        To
        Me To
        Evolve
        My Soul
        And Creativity
        Too in Every
        Soul
        i Meet
        And
        Greet
        Seeing The
        Breath
        Of
        God
        Divine
        Indeed in
        Each Soul
        NamasteπŸ™β˜ΊοΈπŸ€—

      2. Shreya Joshi Avatar

        I’m not from India 😬

      3. katiemiafrederick Avatar

        Hehe
        You are
        Still
        Very
        Nice
        With Smiles😁
        Sorry for assuming
        From the Origin
        Of Your
        Poetic
        Sounding
        First Name
        And Brahmin
        Derived Last
        Name too With
        SMiLes
        Hehe
        Now
        i Am
        Curious😁

      4. Shreya Joshi Avatar

        I’m from Nepal! πŸ˜¬πŸ™ˆ

      5. katiemiafrederick Avatar

        SMiLes Hehe
        Hehe… At Least i Am
        Close.. Wishing
        You A Nice Week
        My Friend😁

      6. Shreya Joshi Avatar

        Truee… You too have a beautiful week!

  4. Thegirlwithapuzzledmind Avatar

    Awesome post Shreya. Loved how you expressed the whole story of love, betrayal and heartbreak through your poetry. Well written piece.

    1. Shreya Joshi Avatar

      Thank you so much, dear!! ❀️❀️❀️ So glad you liked it. πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ’žπŸ’žπŸ’žπŸ’ž

  5. Charles Avatar

    β€πŸ§‘πŸ’›πŸ’šπŸ’™πŸ’œπŸ€ŽπŸ–€πŸ€

    1. Shreya Joshi Avatar

      ❀️❀️❀️❀️❀️❀️❀️❀️❀️❀️❀️❀️❀️

  6. Gentleman Dave Avatar

    This very well could be my favorite one you’ve written, Shreya! So fantastic! Capturing so much emotion. ❀❀❀πŸ₯°πŸ₯°

    1. Shreya Joshi Avatar

      Thank you so much, Dave!! πŸ€—πŸ€—β€οΈβ€οΈ How have you been?

      1. Gentleman Dave Avatar

        Shreya!! I’ve missed you here. I’m doing much better, thank you for asking. My health is improving, but I am constantly tired and need more rest and stress management. How are you? Your poetry is truly becoming so great! β€β€πŸ€—πŸ€—

      2. Shreya Joshi Avatar

        I’m good, Dave. Take care!! πŸ€—πŸ€—β€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈ

    1. Shreya Joshi Avatar

      Thank you so much! ❀️❀️❀️

  7. yash Avatar

    It takes courage to take those pain and not share to anybody but it demands to have a badass courage to pen down those thoughts into such a beautiful way.
    FAN!!!!!!

    1. Shreya Joshi Avatar

      Thank you so much, Yash! πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°β€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈ

  8. Greg Dennison Avatar

    I like this. Very real.

    1. Shreya Joshi Avatar

      Thank you so much! πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°

  9. gldn2th Avatar

    Ok, now that I have tossed three wet tissues in the garbage……
    You are simply the best.

    1. Shreya Joshi Avatar

      πŸ™ˆπŸ™ˆπŸ™ˆπŸ™ˆ Thank you so much!! πŸ’žπŸ’žπŸ’ž You make me smile. πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°

  10. Anushk@ Avatar

    Shreyaaaaaaaaaaa!!!
    First of all lemme tell you.. you’ve been missed here..badly!!!!
    Don’t go now please.
    And this poetry shreyaaaaa…I can feel each and every word, the feeling behind that you must be feeling.
    I’m glad you’re happy happy now.
    Keep smiling.. that’s all I want. Proud of you ❀️

  11. Navin Avatar

    Loving the story….the flow of emotions….the vivid & realistic imagery….and then bam….you cracked the nut in the end….

    1. Shreya Joshi Avatar

      Thank you so much! πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯° So glad you liked it. β€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈπŸ’žπŸ’žπŸ’žπŸ’žπŸ’πŸ’πŸ’πŸ’

      1. Navin Avatar

        You’re welcome, Shreya….How can I not….you expressed it so beautifully β€οΈπŸ€—βœ¨πŸ₯°

      2. Shreya Joshi Avatar

        πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯° Thank you so much! ❀️❀️❀️

      3. Navin Avatar

        You’re very welcome, Shreya ❀️✨

      4. Shreya Joshi Avatar

        πŸ€—πŸ€—πŸ’žπŸ’ž

  12. Cindy Georgakas Avatar

    Oh I just got goosebumps Shreya! That was so wonderfully written and a great ending to a deserving ex! ❀️ Cindy

    1. Shreya Joshi Avatar

      Thank you so much, Cindy!! πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯° So glad you liked it. β€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈπŸ’πŸ’πŸ’πŸ’žπŸ’žπŸ’ž

      1. Cindy Georgakas Avatar

        You’re so welcome SHREYA!! πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•

      2. Shreya Joshi Avatar

        πŸ€—πŸ€—πŸ€—

      3. Cindy Georgakas Avatar

        πŸ€—πŸ€—πŸ€—

  13. 𝑹𝒐𝑩𝑰𝑡 β˜„οΈ Avatar

    Hey Shreya, this is weirdβ€” I was just wondering about you a few hours ago, if I’d accidentally unfollowed you perhaps? I thought I should check that I’m still following you next time I’m on wordpress. Well anyway that slipped my mind (as most things!) but then I saw this new post from you πŸ˜„. You’ve been missed! But glad you took some time that you needed. πŸ’™

    1. Shreya Joshi Avatar

      Thank you so much, Robin!! I’m trying to stay in WP … But well, so many other stuff to do. 😭😭😭 How have you been??

  14. Aishwarya Sharma Avatar

    This is so beautifully said 😍

    1. Shreya Joshi Avatar

      Thank you so much, Aishwarya! ❀️

  15. gldn2th Avatar

    Tomorrow (Thur. 26 Nov), here in the states, we will be celebrating Thanksgiving Day. I will be expressing a special thanks for discovering you and your blog.

    1. Shreya Joshi Avatar

      Awwww…. πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°β€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈπŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–

  16. Alive In Coffin Avatar

    Story of every heart around you… Beautifully carved…

    1. Shreya Joshi Avatar

      Thank you so much, dear! ❀️❀️

  17. AnuRijo Avatar

    Beautifully expressed the ups and downs of a love story..❀️

    1. Shreya Joshi Avatar

      Thank you so much, Anu. So glad you liked it. Really means a lot. ❀️❀️

  18. Carol anne Avatar

    hugs. your doing the right thing! You are worth so much more than that! ❀

    1. Shreya Joshi Avatar
  19. Keziah Avatar

    This is absolutely beautiful, Shreya. The sadness and pain you have portrayed here, is just heartbreaking. To write this well without experience, is magical and so beautiful. Thank you for this wonderful piece of art. please write more. I’d love to read it (followed your blog. 😊)

  20. Saliha Fathima Avatar

    Much love and power to you!

    1. Shreya Joshi Avatar

      Thank you so much!! ❀️❀️

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